I googled the human design and gave my vital stats over for a review. Result are in, I was born a highly complexed individual with qualities leading to so many contradictories a person like me can identify with amongst earthlings. I am so very blessed and cursed at the same time to be me, I am very much content with my life and the way I lead it, yet questioning everything around me, why me? why not me? why? By reviewing some of the results, a lot of the Human Design did indeed resonate well with me, in fact dead on. Instantly I reflected on everything else I learn of myself and how I handle situations, why do I feel blessed and cursed simultaneously, why can't some people understand me, why am I misconstrued, etc.... Again it goes back to 'WHY?' So many thoughts run through my head and I do feel I'm relatively simple in my way of life yet so many misinterpretations happen. It's interesting to read up on the human design and I will do my best to enlighten those who read this blog entry in hopes that it will enable to spark your interest in doing the same thing to understand yourself. Not to mention I'm a Chinese Zodiac Dog and INTJ in the MBTI. It's all fascinating.
So I came up as a 3/5 Manifesting Generator and my theme is frustration, In life I will go through constant trials and tribulations bumping into other people who are a projector, generator, manifestor, manifesting generator, and reflector. I'm no professional by any means or even well versed in the subject, in fact I really just study generators and manifesting generators to understand myself to know that I am normal in my own skin. Lot's of self study huh? Some probably think, why so much? Well, why not? This incorporates the way we were brought up, our surroundings, the influences we surround ourselves with, our own reflections, the fundamentals can go on and on. But there is always a foundation, just like building a house, it starts with a foundation to build on.
Going back to my chart, 3/5 Manifesting Generator, it means I'm a mix of both types in one type, allow me to explain. Better yet, I'll just pull up some references from the internet to make it easier for you to get.
3/5 Profile - Someone with a 3-5 profile in Human Design is driven to take the results of their experiences and use those to project change and what they see as the Truth to the rest of the world. In Human Design the 3rd line is called the Martyr and the 5th line is called the Heretic. What follows explains why this profile carries such heavy names.
The 3rd line profile is driven to experiment with certain things or put themselves in situations so they can have an experience from which they extract truths. This process has an inward or self focus. As they go through it they are constantly internalizing what is revealed and how this impacts them. After synthesizing the impact, they then share the results with world or at least their local community. Because society judges some experiments as failures the 3rd line carries the moniker of Martyr.
The 5th line kicks in to share the results of these experiments/experiences in a projected way. In a broadcast like a movie projector, they not only say “Here is what I learned”, but also add, “This is how you should change your behavior or yourself to benefit from the Truth I have discovered.” The 5th line is driven to create this change, often geared toward changing the behavior of others. This projection also carries an absoluteness to it, as in “I know this is right.” However since this energy is projected, it needs to be invited. People don’t want change unless they are ready for it. If the prognostications of the 5th line are not invited then the 5th line person can feel the oppression of rejection or the insult of being ignored. This is why the 5th line carries the moniker of the Heretic.
The 3-5 profile can be one of the more difficult profiles to feel at harmony with the rest of humanity. Between the projection not always being invited and the experiments being judged, the 3-5 person can feel pressure from the world to withdraw to get out of the heat. Yet the 5th line is determined to make change and will push the 3-5 out there again, to project the way.
Manifesting Generator - Manifesting Generator is a category of Generator. They get encouraged from an early age to use their manifesting power to make things happen. However their real power emerges from waiting and going with the flow. They have to learn to trust that their life unfolds with satisfaction when they don’t push the river. If they first engage their energy (or not) out of response, then they can move with a ‘go for it’ speed and they won’t suffer frustrating anger.
Growing up I have been impulsive to some degree and then realizing after maybe it wasn't the best decision at times. Some people are just born to make quick decisions with absolutely no repercussions and I would say to myself, 'How does that person get to go through life without pit falls? How do they deal with it? Why them?' Again, the why. But as I have gotten older and practiced yoga for a few years now I have come to learn and ACCEPT that everything I felt as a child up until this very day, I was born to deal with. I have said to myself many times over as I've talked myself through certain aspects of life where I felt so lost and confused, that I accept suffering. I have always accepted the suffering, not as a victim but to learn to understand it to test my character. So it's fascinating to know that my human design is Martyr/Heretic in the 3/5 profile. The 3rd line is a Martyr and the 5th is Heretic. Again to better understand this without confusion from myself, I'll instill a link to a verbal explanation from a site that I have listened to a few times and felt, 'Yep I see this in my life' or, "Yes, I have felt this."
http://www.humandesign.com/right-angle-profile-3-5
If you feel the need to discover yourself a little more or are just curious of your human design, just google it and type in your information to get results. It's fascinating what you learn to accept what you may or may not already know.
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